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IshaSachar
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Name: Isha
Birthday: 12/21/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Shopping, Clubbing, Goin to the water park, Traveling, Hiking the Mountains, Swimming with my pet dolphin, Modeling, meeting nice new people, going out and havin a good time
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Member Since:
1/4/2004
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| There is a lot to say, a lot has changed in the past year and a half. BAD and good things, unfortunately, it is mostly bad things. I'm 21 now!! woooohhhhhhhhhhh
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| ok, yes I know Im 20yrs old and too old for this thing. But I was just looking through my past entries and it was too tempting to write another one. Its weird and funny how things change dramatically. Things that you thought would never happen - happen, people that you trusted and thought would never betray you, betray you.
I was unaware of a lot of things that happened in the past and when I look back and revise it, I cant believe I missed out on SO many clues, because I trusted those people SO MUCH! In less than a week, I have lost respect for a lot of people, especially this one person who was really special to me and I have lost trust in a lot of people, all in one week! Its funny how if you do something wrong, all ur dirty deeds are bound to unfold.
My life just feels weird right now. I'm going through a tough time. This year has sucked so badly, ever since it started. But now I know which people are the ones to create those dark clouds in my life and all I have to do is rise above that storm to see the sunshine. I thank God for showing me the reality of the situations and people, but now that I know the reality, I don't know what to do or where to go from here.
I feel like I have put TOOOOOOOO much trust and love into this guy. The things he has done, I never thought he would do and I NEVER thought he would lie to me or disrespect me in such a way. He has given me wounds after wounds, and in less than a week, I cant believe how much shit I found out, I found out more than I could ever handle. This past week, has given me the biggest wound that will be scarred for life. He has given me a lifetime worth of pain.
As for the others, nothing hurts me more than seeing your girlfriends lie to you constantly. Especially when you trusted them SO much and expected them to be there for you no matter what and have your back.
I never asked for any of this shit to happen in my life, I was just trying to live my life to the fullest, not knowing that the people iam hanging out with, would do this shit to me.
Ive learned my life lesson, NEVER EVER trust any woman with your man!!
I feel like I am getting punished for something that I did not deserve and i do not deserve this. Far as I am concerned, I did not hurt anyone or cause harm to anyone purposely. I may have a bad ass temper, but I know I'm a very good person at heart. It would break my heart if I ever did anything like this to someone I know personally, so then why does this shit happen to me????
What goes around, comes around
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|  The thought of a gray day, just makes my mood gloomy. I hate it when its cold outside, especially when its cold in the house! Welcome to Georgia, where u can never predict the weather! For the past couple of weeks it was nice outside... it was a "flipflop" weather. I felt like jumping in the pool or taking a trip down to Miami. Just when I felt that it was ok for me to pack up my snow boots, they came in use today! My goal was to clean the house.. starting from downstairs, but I don't even feel like getting out of bed. It is weird how the weather can control how you feel, at least my mood!
Anyway- last weekend was Dishi's and Daisy's 21st birthday bash! They rented out a huge lake house and we all partied there Sat night and had a BBQ the next day! The day after, we apparently guessed that the house was haunted because most of the pictures from mine and Dishi's camera had Orbs!! So I did a little research on Orbs and it turns out that some people believe that certain types of Orbs are spirit balls, which are created from the energy! The weird part about it is that, those "certain" orbs were the same type of orbs in my pictures!! Hmmmm  ... it could be possible!!
So, again I had my moment of " bashing out my feelings!" but this time it was DEEP I have been thinking about telling him how I really feel for a while now, but always hesitated! but, there is no time for fun and games anymore or WAITING, because as the days pass by, it gets closer and closer to tying a not! I mean he's completely graduating this year in October and after that, don't know what his plans will be! I'm still in college though. But i really love him and I told him that by typing a 19 message long text from my Sidekick! I bet he had lots of fun receiving them! I felt so deep when I was typing out my feelings that I started to cry. I told him that I want to be with him and tat I want to marry him. Couple of girls have told me to NEVER tell a guy how much u love him, but this isn't about pride anymore.. this is about my life.. so I said whatever I needed to say! I didn't expect a reply back from him and I didn't get one back!!
Anyway- that was last night. Dont know what the future will hold.
Weekend before last, guess where I was???? WASHINGTON DC FOR BHANGRA BLOWOUT!!!! Can u believe that??? lol. I'm surprised my parents let me go! It was me, karan, anika and Jinny who went! It was fun only during the night time though! I got drunk Fri and Sat night! We drove from Atlanta Thursday night and then left there Sunday. Georgetown was awesome! That's where our hotel was. I can't believe my mom was ok with me going, I never thought I would be able to take one of these trips, unless I was engaged and taking it with my finace or married!!
Anyway- thats all for now! Oh yeah, I'm reading this other Gossip Girl novel right now, but I'm a little confused if its the one AFTER the one I read before, or the one BEFORE it. It's the Gossip Girl - Nothing Can Keep Us Together one!
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| I HATE this shit, I REALLY REALLY DO!! I want to spend time with my cousins!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I want to see them!! Jaseena is getting engaged and i wont be tHERER!
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| Im back from NYC! I got back last Saturday! It was cool.. I mean it was okay! Thankfully it wasnt as cold a sI thought it would be! I didnt get to go to Times Square, but I did get to go pick up GYROS! It was me, minny, nita, anisha, jeeju, veenu, guridya. They were SOOO YUMMY! The beef is better than the chicken! there was a HUGE line for the Gyro! It was raining too! So that should prove how good that Gyro can be! I took A LOT of pix! I got to hang out with Rimi and Nancy. We all wentr to Olive Garden! Before that me, minny, nita and anisha and veenu went to see the Grudge 2! it was SOOO LAME! Dont bother watching it. I didnt get to see Raju this time because he was busy with his new store in Staten Island! We were gona go over his hgouse afterwards for some coffee but Minny had to get home cuz she had to be at work 7am the next day. Anyway- im obsessed with this new song called Dildarian by Arminder Gill! I'm also obsessed with this new hindi song called Tere Bin from the movie Bas Ek Pal! I'm missing *him* now, i mean I cant live without him. I kno its BAD! But I had a dream last night that he had the hots for another girl (like one of his co-workers) and that just HURT ME SO MUCH! I thought shit like that I would bebale to handle now, cuz of Sonu, but Nope its not like that at all! EVEN IN A DREAM IT HURT TO BADLY FROM THE INSIDE! i WAS SO UPSET! I know its selfish for me to say but, I dont want him to be happy without me. I dont want to see him happy with someone else, unless I'm over him and happy with someone else! SEE how selfish love can end up being?? On the way to Atlanta ferom new york, my two hour flight felt short because I sat next to two young futher Cathloic Preisits. We were talking the WHOLE time about religion nd stuff! I really enjoyed talking to him, I felt at ease! I felt attached to them (i get attached to people easily). I wish I had gotte an email address atleast! I never talked to a stranger like that on a plane until then! They were the first. They actually started the conversation when I took Aryan from my mom and bought him back to my seat. They were like "Excuse me, whats ur sons name?" LOL, I wasnt suprised at all cuz I 'am old enogh to be a mother! Especially old enough to be Aryans mother and I laufghed and said "he's not my son, he's my brother!" and they had this surpirsed look on their face and i was like "yeah we are 19yrs apart, his name is Aryan" They just loved hiM! and Aryan loved him!! Even they said that Aryan looks like such a happy and smilie baby! It was like an instant connection they had. The two catholic guys were brothers.. twins! They didnt look like it though! They were 21yrs old, they looked younger than that though. One of their name was Brian and the other was McKeen! Okay i g2g cuz Alisha wants to borrow one of my shirts.. kuthi better give it back to me after she's done with it. | | |
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